To Some People That's Beautiful

I want to sing and dance
Every now and then I can be reckless and wild
I get a little emotional sometimes
But it's beautiful

I give everything I've got
I keep going until there's nothing left
I lay my soul bare and keep coming back for more
But it's beautiful

I'm particular, I think too much
I'm organized, I'm a mess
I'm loyal to a fault
But it's beautiful

I don't trust easily, I'm wary
I'm haunted by things that have happened and things that haven't yet
But I dive right in without heeding my own warnings
And it's beautiful

I'm not perfect, but I'm far from ordinary
I can't be pinned or stifled
My spirit is something special
And that's beautiful

I can be silly, I can be sappy
I can be way too serious sometimes
I overcompensate and I like to earn love
But you know what? It's beautiful

I've got a bright side and a dark side
At my best I glow and radiate
At my worst I withdraw and give in
But it's beautiful

I over extend myself
If you have my love there's almost nothing I wouldn't do for you
I can be like sweet sunshine in the morning
And that's beautiful

I'm a wanderer, I love living
I don't always know where I'm going or what I'm doing
I have a big heart and I'm not afraid to use it
And that's beautiful.

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The point of these ramblings tonight is that all of us are special and wonderful in our own unique ways.  Some of us choose to let our loveable side show while some of us hide it away.  I've been seeing dozens of posts on Facebook and Instagram in the past couple of weeks that are lovey-dovey, cutesy, and romantic.  A girl being swept up in a man's arms, dipped for a kiss on the cheek; a girl being brought breakfast in bed; a girl publicly recognizing and appreciating her boyfriend and how hard he works; another girl describing how wonderfully thoughtful her boyfriend is and how a small gesture from him made her day; a guy announcing that he has the best girlfriend ever because of how well she takes care of him; another guy proclaiming proudly how much he loves his fiancée; a couple posting pictures of themselves holding hands and kissing...

Of course, there are always going to be unhappy posts, stories of endings and betrayal, regrets and poor decisions.  And I'm not one of the people who hates reading about any of these things (or the happy ones).  I see a lot of folks complaining like "keep that stuff to yourself, it makes me want to throw up, no one cares about how in love you are, get a room," or "stop airing your dirty laundry online, if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all, I'm so sick of scrolling through my news feed and reading about everyone's most recent drama or heartache..."

To those people I say delete the ones who are annoying you then.  That's what social media is for - it's a forum to publicly express and share anything you want.  Some people have a natural tendency to share more when they're happy; others are more inclined to share when they're depressed.  If you feel the need to criticize what someone is sharing then maybe there's something going on (or not going on) in your life.  If you don't like it, don't read it, or unfriend them, simple as that.

Everyone has a right to their feelings and the expression of those feelings.  If they choose to use social media as an outlet then so be it, that's their prerogative.  But I for one, enjoy reading and seeing what my "friends" are experiencing.  It reminds me that there's so much in life that goes on, that could go on, that we miss.  If you're one of those lucky girls whose boyfriend publicly proclaims his love for you and regularly tells you how great you are and expresses affection in a public way, then by all means, brag about it.  And hold onto that.  And cherish it, because it's something not every girl has, even though it's something that we all have a right to feel.  I'm happy for any and all of you and I support that you feel happy enough to share it with everyone. 

And if you're one of the ones who's upset and something bad happened to you recently, hold on, because this too shall pass, and if it makes you feel better to share and if someone connects to you and is there for you, then that's great.  And hopefully by reading other people's happy posts you'll feel optimistic that your outlook can change for the better. 

We all are exquisite creatures.  Every girl (and guy) deserves someone who is going to make her feel that way.  Someone who is going to love her for who she really is - all the things that make her her - maybe even if some of those things are not so nice.  Someone who will admire and embrace the characteristics that she possesses, the things she accomplishes, the good deeds she performs.  Someone who will let her know how she enriches his life and brightens his day.  Someone who makes her feel like he knows what he has and doesn't want to lose it and will do whatever it takes to keep her by his side.  Someone who knows her better than she knows herself and who is her biggest supporter, fan, and best friend.  Deep down, don't most of us want that? Yea, I want someone who's going to make a big deal over me once in a while.  So what? I am a big deal.  Is it asking too much?

If you have that, I'm happy for you.  If you don't, you can, and if you never stop searching, one day you will.  Don't sell yourself short, don't settle for less than you deserve, don't trap yourself into thinking you have a "type" or a standard that is impossible to meet.  We all deserve to be loved as much as we love.  Allow those who can deliver that feeling a glimpse into your soul.  Let that wall come down and forget your fear for long enough to test the waters and see if anything is there. 

When people praise you, compliment you, and sincerely offer you a gleaming opinion of yourself from their perspective, accept it with grace and let it linger.  Reflect on it.  Ask yourself if you see the things about yourself that they see.  Then ask yourself if others in your life see the same things.  If the people you spend the most time with don't see the best in you and bring out the best in you, maybe they're dulling your shine.  You shouldn't have to try to get someone to recognize you for who you are.  You shouldn't have to try to give someone the feeling that they crave being around you and that they're just magnetically drawn to you.  You shouldn't have to try to get someone to think you're awesome, to love you to the moon and back, to sing your praises, to compliment and thank more than they criticize and doubt, and to respect you and cherish you like the treasure that you are. 

That should all come naturally.  Every girl (and guy) deserves that.  We all deserve that.